Soulmate for Everyone (?)

The pessimistic side of mine sometimes take a peek of love. The lyrics to this song describes its observation this time.

incompatible, it don't matter though

'cause someone's bound to hear my cry

speak out if you do, you're not easy to find

is it possible mr. loveable is already in my life?

right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise

who doesn't long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody to tell me why i'm on my own

if there's a soulmate for everyone

here we are again, circles never end

how do i find the perfect fit?

there's enough for everyone

but i'm still waiting in line

who doesn't long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody to tell me why i'm on my own

if there's a soulmate for everyone

if there's a soulmate for everyone

most relationships seem so transitory

they're all good but not the permanent one

who doesn't long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody to tell me why i'm on my own

if there's a soulmate for everyone

Natasha Beddingfield - Soulmate

This autumn weather does not fail in making me feeling gloomy. While eyeing people in love, the coldness of this weather strikes me even more. But let this pessimistic be a temporary one, for I shall one day see the optimistic rising from another side of me. I still would like to believe that there is a soulmate reserved for each and everyone of us, and that at the end it will not be a transitory one.

A Birthday Post

When you are in an estranged country, birthday is one of those moments which will make you extremely homesick.

Started the day by a skype call with my parents, cried of course, I just wanted them to pull me and somehow be inside my lovely warm house, eating mum's food for my birthday. That didn't happen of course.

But I may just be the world's most lucky 24-years-old in the world. My friends, got up at 10 AM, as they told me, to buy a birthday cake for me!

It was delivered at around 6 PM, after I "ruined" their surprised by coming to one of my friend's room when I was supposedly to be in mine.

the birthday cake

Went out for a nice Vietnamese meal. It was a simple yet charming birthday. The sky was clear, which has never happened, as long as I can remember it's always raining in my birthday. The twinkling stars accompanied us as we walked back to our residence.

Though I did not see a falling star, I made a wish anyway.

to the greatest friends

A Moment of Contemplation

Officially, I am 24 today, well at least in the other half of the world.

Here, not yet.

Not quite ready to be a year older, but with time, there is no compromise.

24 years, this life of mine has been quite a roller-coaster one. Turned upside down with love, twirled with decisions, slowed down by friendships, speed up with madness, led down with disappointments but mostly engaged with laughter.

But in my birthday, sometimes I like to contemplate. What has happened in the previous year, and what could be made better, what could be removed, what should be repeated, what shouldn't be repeated. And once you get the answers, you wish for a better year.

What could be made better: my effort

What could be removed: my complaining

What should be repeated: love

What shouldn't be repeated: bad practice of love, disappointments, high expectations on people

then here I go...

I wish for a good year, may the over-flowing love continue, may the laughter and joy be added, may the madness and craziness balances the dullness that I may encounter, and maybe if I'm lucky enough may love comes, in any form, in an unexpected way. Amen.

Invisible

Skype

GTalk

Yahoo Messenger

Facebook Chat

MSN Messenger

All the social chats we have. I have them, obviously. And how nice it is to be able to chat with your friends over those fancy communication systems. I love them, since I have friends and family living thousands of miles away.

As you know, you can set many status, like Available, Busy, Away and weirdly enough Invisible. Why in the world would we want to stay Invisible when we can just log out? Simple. Sometimes staying invisible is cool, you're there but not really there, people don't know your existence but you can observe people. You know when they come and go.

Who wouldn't want to set their lives into Invisible every once in a while? Where we can just be there without anyone noticing us, and get this, we can observe other people without them noticing us. Cool huh?

Can I Skip November?

Woaaaa November already! Raise your hands if you think time flies *me me me me!!*

I'm starting to believe that time REALLY flies. I mean it's like November already. Sweet November only reminds me of my birthday, which usually makes me super excited. Always a celebration, mum's food, friends by my side, family around me, what a lovely way to spend my turning of age and to face the fact live screams at you saying "HAH! you're a year older! grow up!!"

This November, however, is different. It will be a day where I spend my birthday without the family and friends I'm used to. I'm gonna miss my mum's food or the way my family gather together like we do during birthdays.

So if time does fly, can we just fly over this birthday? So I don't have to be sad and miss everything?

Unsure

How do you keep yourself from falling into the same hole?

How do you keep yourself from damaging your heart?

How do you keep yourself safe?

How can you read the signs?

How can you avoid the turbulences?

So many questions, but no answer. I wonder if there is ever any solutions.

Like the little things in life, it remains unsolved. Though I sometimes prefer to be silence now. Truth be told, sometimes, for me anyway, it is better to let things hidden than be shown which will only unravel pain and scar.

Nomad

A nomad, a wanderer, no fixed residence. I think myself as this. Let me show you.

Born in Yogyakarta:

Lived there for 2 years (I think). Then moved to Salatiga:

Had a great childhood for 8 years in this small yet lively town. Then more exciting move to Sheffield:

Went to what I remembered as a fuzzy school, for only 2 months, I remember leaving the school without having any real friends. Lived in a shared flat near a Chinese restaurant. Then moved to Leeds:

...for 4.5 years, had a really great teenage life there. Met many wonderful friends, of which I'm still friends with now. Went to a great high school and a wonderful church. Theeennn it was back to here:

where I spent my senior high school and university, so like 7 years. Love the city with it's authenticity. I especially loved my uni life where I met my best friends. I think my parents have decided to stop their "nomadicness" (yes I invented the word) and built a house near a rice field in this city. And no, I didn't settle for this city. Went to the big mama city, Jakarta, to find money:

for about 2.5 years. There I moved 3 times, from one flat to another. Worked in a great company with great friends. Now living in Nantes:

for 1 year (I think, still many months to go). Next destination to live in? Here:

And so being a nomadic is not all fun. I sometimes get confused when people ask me where I'm from, I usually answer Yogyakarta because that's my birth town, but I don't really feel settled there. On the other side, it's also very fun. I learn to adapt fast in a new environment. And my definition of home is neither a town nor a country, it's simply my family.